A Short Dilemma

Walking down the street with my 21 year old daughter I felt it necessary to relate to her an irritation I have been experiencing as of late. This new and yet bizarre phenomena has been happening more since we moved to central Florida. Afterwards she suggested I share my plight I will attempt to do this here.

For whatever reason I have been singled out by my right upper inner thigh. This quadrant of my body for whatever reason has decided to obtain a mass amount of fat globules in a small localized area. This region now juts out just enough to fit into the adjacent thigh. This rogue thigh then grabs the surrounding clothing and like a squirrel, ferret and or any other forage and storage vermin tucks and stores my shorts in my groin area. This bunching of apparel is quite annoying and embarrassing if I may say so myself.

I understand what is going on with my body, don’t get me wrong I am aware. I am however still baffled as to WHY this seems like a healthy, normal, beneficial idea to my body. Does it not know I don’t need to store fat there. The usual placement of my tummy has worked for years why start to outsource? Dare I say I walk more now then I have in at least 5 – 7 years. Sure that doesn’t seem too groundbreaking, I am no athlete but I could not help but ponder, why oh why my globuled thigh must you reach in and store shorts near my other thigh?

This in no way is going to make things better. Neither will it solve my shorts hiding left upper thigh storage area problems. I know what needs to happen now.

The Crushing Weight: Heavy is as heavy does.

I troubleshoot all the time.

Mainly I troubleshoot myself, my actions, my words, even my thoughts.

If this sounds laborious you are correct, it is.

I rather enjoy the sport. Not missing an opportunity to put myself under the microscope. To say this is habitual is an understatement. I do it because it feels right, it soothes and placates. There is nothing quite like taking a mini morsel of a moment and putting it through the grinding teeth of my acumen.

This being said I have labored quite frumniously over what content I would create for my blog. The possibilities are so great and many but seriously I have had a bear of a time committing to one topic, genre, or expertise.

Heavy is as heavy does.

So I asked my husband what of my writing has he enjoyed reading the most? He says quickly, anything where he can hear my voice.

Now the goal is to write until I can always hear my voice. This outta be interesting. Well here goes nothing.

Finding My Voice

It’s hard to find a voice, I could swear I have been using my whole life. Some how some where I forgot what it is like to write in that voice. I hear it in my head. And yet I know my writing voice and the one I use to speak used to be different.

Which one should I use? The one I hear or the one I feel as I type? Does anyone else struggle with these questions or concerns? What makes one want to be a writer? I have always loved writing. Something about a filled page fills me with glee. And not the teeny singing kind either. (Not that there is something wrong with that.)

I miss my writers voice, I recall it as being so strong, articulate and eloquent, but what did I know, I was 18. Perhaps it was about my topic? I now write mostly about not knowing what to write. Before I would write about social injustice, the news, the degraded state of our social institutions, love… But I had more time to ruminate about these matters. Now I am running around, cleaning, cooking, caring and considering my days away.

Maybe just taking some time to look around and see that which is to be seen and taking that time to ruminate once more will yield more true voice-y writings that I long ago recall. At this rate what do I have to lose? I have only everything to gain, let’s face it, I like to try and do and see what happens next. I experiment a great deal and here I go again on my own.

Details later.

The Game Plan

I have decided that I will be writing every day, well at least five times a week. I bought The Writer’s Devotional: 365 Inspirational Exercises, Ideas, Tips & Motivations on Writing by Amy Peters

I got this book about 6 months ago. In that time I have used it once and that was for my previous blog post. In explanation, since the acquisition of this book my husband has needed my full support in his most recent career move. I am also the full time domestic engineer of a 7 person household. I am also a game designer, a producer, a project manager and I write… when I can.

I am almost at the point where I can dedicate a majority of my time pursuing my personal interests. Something, thankfully has been afforded by this move and my husbands unwavering provision and support.

The next writing inspiration in Peters book is about motivation. The quote from Yogi Berra “If you don’t know where you are going, you might end up someplace else.” is aptly used here. This also got me to think, where am I going with writing? Exactly where do I hope to end up? What is it that I want? In answer to all these questions, I am not altogether certain. A part of me wants to freelance write for any publication especially for women…seeing as how I am one and are raising four. I’d love to write campaign speeches for a candidate I believe in. I would like to share my opinions, ideas, theories and muses with an audience that appreciates and or is amused by my candor.

I’d like to believe that at some point in my writing I may inspire someone some day. Lofty? Egotistical? I am most certain it may be, but it is what I hope for.

I am mostly known among my friends for being honest. Also the word harsh has been used as well as, abrupt, brusque, hard, candid, and forthright. Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to be any of these things. I just answer the questions they ask or offer the things I see. I don’t necessarily profess to be accurate or true in most of these cases. Let’s face it an opinion is subjective. What is truth in opinion but the fact that one believes it? I could be way off base here, I welcome any respectful discussion or rebuttal on that one. Going back to the original subject for this post, what is my motivation?

If I had to say, it may be to share the thoughts, ideas, solutions and theories that I have on what ever lies in front of me. I happen to have many. I didn’t say they were great. I didn’t say they were awesome. I didn’t even say they were educated or right. But they are honestly mine and they are honestly given here in this blog of mine.

So to get on with it I guess, my motivation is to share what I have uniquely acquired in my many years of life on this planet, my experiences. I have discovered that experiences in and of themselves are not necessarily incredible. Don’t get me wrong some really are, but I find it fascinating how one absorbs, remembers, learns or even rejects experiences for whatever reason. I am truly fascinated by this and will listen for hours and read book after book on autobiographies. They have to be auto’s I don’t yet trust biographies. Maybe I should look up reputable biographers… a side note for sure.

As I was saying the game plan is to share these thoughts in an attempt to uplift, give hope or inspire any individual. Maybe just maybe I can make someone smile, or laugh or feel less alone in this universe. I’d love to write things that make people say, YEAH, me too!! Relating, I believe, is something we all want. Being able to relate to someone is a wonderful experience. I have gone to great lengths in an attempt to relate to the people I know or love. I once watched an entire show just to relate to my sister and sister-in-law. I did not actually care for the show, but being able to talk about it from an honest perspective was crucial in becoming close and trying to foster a relationship with them.

I use this strategy in my domestic life. I have found it most rewarding when I can use the things that binds us in experience to help them understand a point I am making! SUPER BONUS 2X’S EXPERIENCE BOOST!!

I am not saying this is something everyone should do, lets face it, not everyone has the time, nor the inclination to play a video game just so they can understand all the game jargon pouring forth from their progeny’s mouths. I do it, because as I have said before, I enjoy seeing how people garner understanding from their experiences. I can’t do that unless I experience something similar.

I do believe I have gone way off topic here. At any rate the plan is to share and see where it leads in the hopes that it lands somewhere in the middle of published syndicate and political gun for hire. Who knows? But I’d like a chance to get there and writing every day from this day forth may or may not get me there, but if I don’t try, how will I know?

Leaders Pulse into Action By @KateNasser For #bealeader

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Leaders pulse into action. They pulse opportunities and obstacles into success. They pulse complaints into action.  They see complaints and hurdles as the data for action and change.  Complaints without action make little sense to them.

This may well be the distinctive behavior of leaders - leaders pulse into action!

They don’t let rough currents pull everyone down. They turn rough currents into the currents of change.

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For quite some time now I have been saying to my children and really anyone who would listen, that what we need more now are real leaders. This post comes to me at a most relevant time.

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